beaten with a stick

All right. It all seems to come in deluges does it not? Today I feel like I've been beaten with a stick from the insides. My emotions are bruised as is my heart. Feeling like one of the most important people in your life doesn't give a fig about you and feels perhaps they are stupid for staying involved in your life, getting yelled at by one of your clients (even if it wasn't personal and just transference this is why I am NOT a counselor among other reasons). And just generally feeling like going and walking away from work and jumping into the Susquehanna River (don't worry Spidey I won't). To much to change, to worried about what other people think. It's overwhelming.
Then again.
Why should I care.