day 2 the energy automaton will she sleep tonight?

I feel like an energy automaton. Getting things done but very apathetic.
Day 2 of taking the strattera at 6 pm. I still feel pretty apathetic although I am

utilizing my energy and getting massive amounts of things done.
Today I nearly finished and started making janet's pendant which is something I've

never done in one day before or even 2 for that matter. I made a scratch Maryland

gingerbread cake. and I didn't get on the computer at all after I got home from work. I

did play some Wii. But it was intermittent. What I've come to notice is that the I feel

90% better as far as energy and the really bad depression is concerned. However, while

I am getting many things done I'm still having to really PUSH to make myself do it. I

still feel very apathetic about what I'm doing. The best way to describe it is I'm no

longer taking any joy in the processes of things and the wonder of the fact that I can

actually get it done like I was before. EVERYTHING feels like work now and drudgery. I

don't feel that enjoyment in the process of doing ANYTHING. The only thing I can stand

doing that I take enjoyment in the process of is reading for pleasure. I come to

understand that part of the great pleasure I got in making jewelry in the first place

was the pride in not just the finished product...but the making of it....being able to

say I DO have these skills and that sets me apart from many other people making me

special in a certain way. Now I don't care. I had to force myself to finish as far as I

got tonight. I just don't care. The joy in the journey is gone for me and for me, it's

ALL about the process of GETTING there not the ends. The end product is just a nice

byproduct of all the fun you had getting there. But I can't feel that right now. Not in

anything except reading which is pretty much an immediate gratifier since the process

is the means to the end in itself.