miasmatic interlocutor of monosyllabic muck

How long should you wait and hope
Should I wade still through mire, apathy, miasmatic interlocutor of monosyllabic muck?! I see so much more in you. Why are you afraid of that.
Shall I wait.

Are you afraid of me?
A strong person, beautiful, bold, innovative....
scared insecure and self-denegrating?

I'm afraid
I'm afraid for the future (no cliches please)
I know what I want
Will i get it? Who knows.

Talk of 'who I am' and 'motivation and isolation' of aversion.
I hate negative Ions.
I'd rather have molecules bonded and working together.
Positive ions....affirmation, celebration, passion, mission.
hope.

It's done. I wait.