Monday, March 12, 2007

more good

Ok I'm not going to let one little email get me down even if I did make a mistake. Sorry person I apologize you know who you are.

I started my new job as a case manager last week and went to the gym 4 days out of 5 after work! Looks like it's paying off. After I went to the gym today and broke a new goal (I did each circuit station twice which equals...um 2 circuits and about 600 calories w00t!) I weighed myself
I lost 2 pounds since last week! Doesn't sound like much and who cares if it may be water weight. I'm down to 254 now woo hoo! Each 2 pounds adds up and 4 more of those two pounds equals TEN pounds YAY!

Sunday, March 11, 2007

of comprehension

"I believe though I do not comprehend, and I hold by faith what I cannot grasp with the mind. "Saint Bernard


This is my catch all quote right now. I wait for love. My friend Surfer Boy of Guernsey says wisely "Become the right person don't wait for the right person." One of the wiser things of late that I've heard.


All right so I work the work of healing (thank you Whatspider) since I'm worthy of it through Christ.

Work the work of being a good steward of my body and being myself apart from others but Christ (thank you Matt).

being.
I am roiled up.
being/.

of noise

I was recently chatting with my friend Simon on Guernsey Island. I challenged him to write a poem about Guernsey and he challenged me to right a poem about noise. Here is the poem about noise.

Of noise

you wrap yourself around me and come into me
into my head like a lover into his loveor
like a rapist into the victim or like even the ...honey I have a headache voices and hums the street the cars honk the ugly words of hate and criticism myselfandothers the rain pattering shushing sursurring softly against the
pavements or words better i love you, you are special, be easy,
i'm hear, you are loved, lovely...so lovely, joy!music...ethereal lovely, earthy heavy, solid, jubilant or all
else!
my ear
the portal to what may be procreated in my brain
the womb of the ear is the mind ,you know, except in reverse
Within the ideas formed from the noise the embryonic explode to
life...lover, rapist, or the indifferent spouse. embraced,
fought, or set aside to filter and drift through the mind to
settle with a sigh into obscure-oncethoughtness to gleam
embraced by the lover enthroned in the seat of the heart to lay
glimmering like a treasure of great price or to be rattled
around like a knife or club in the mind and heart feeling beaten to death like the
rapist power, control, dirty...got you now we have you you can't
escape .....but I can..it's my mind

Silence.

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Sunday, March 04, 2007

go away

Sometimes it's just to painful to face someone right now.
I don't want to see you right now. Please just leave me alone. You hurt me.